This morning I woke up to discover that I don't have a voice again. I was bummed and instantly bored. I have really done nothing the past few days. Saturday evening, everything was fine. I attended a party for work. I did drink a little more than I have been over the past few months. I felt a little off and left the party early. I went to another party and left there as well. I went home and got in bed. I was asleep for a few hours when it hit. Nausea, then vomiting. I thought the alcohol was the cause originally. I slept for most of the day.
For those of you that do not know my normal routine for the past three months has been the same. I am up at 530 or 6 in the morning every day. Yes, even my off days. I surf the web, check email and do a workout. Hey don't judge it is a time I pick. I am in the shower latest 630 and out the door by 710 on workdays. If I am off, I am normally walking as soon as the first light hits so I can see the sunrise and the forest wake up. This is a time when I talk to God. In the evening on workdays I do the opposite. I time my walks to watch the sun set.
Anyway, I did not get out of bed until noon Sunday. I had a horrible headache, my body ached and I was still nauseated. I thought my throat hurt from the vomiting so I stayed in bed and did very little. I realized later in the day that my voice was going. Great that is all I needed. I got back in the bed took some oils and medication. I vegged on TV for the rest of the day.
Monday morning I got up late. I did not really hear the alarm. (Very unusual for me) I hurried getting ready for work. I was sore but in such a rush to make it on time I really did not think. I hate being late. I drove as fast as I could and got to work no one was there. I began to realize at this time that I really felt weak, hot, nauseous, and like I was going to pass out. I sat there trying to do very little. I had a test to give, grade and go over. I thought how bad can that be. My voice faded again after I began talking with the class. After we went over everything I left. I came home and got back in bed. I have been there since. I finally got up to take a shower this morning. I tried to go in today no luck. I have very little voice.
I explain all this to say, I was bored until a hour ago. I have no reason to be bored. I have hundreds of books and magazines to read. I have five blankets to finish. I have to send out cards. The list goes on and on. What I have not done enough of is take care of me. I haven't had a vacation in a year and a half. All of my trips have been working trips. I really haven't done much for me. That one day off that I have is normally spent working out, yard work, cooking, laundry, grocery shopping and getting ready for the lesson for Monday's class. In other words I am always busy.
In this moment, I was given a sign to just be. Relax and listen to Christmas music, watch endless movies, not think about work and reflect. Last night listening to a Lakewood broadcast I was reminded that we all have been given a purpose. We cannot fulfill this purpose with a mind or body that is weak. We have to keep ourselves strong to do what God has for us. Only then can we be strong in our journey. I want to be strong enough to do as our creator wishes.
Today I am focusing on just being. Enjoying these days in bed and getting my strength back. As well as my voice. It is a moment in time. Just a small moment. I am grateful for this time.
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